Sunday, July 23, 2006 @ 11:20

The Wishing Tree


I saw this display at the school library:




"Take a leaf to make a wish."


The Wishing Tree!

About two years back I stopped making birthday wishes because I had had everything I'd wanted. It seems, though, that I will always remember 2006 as the year intent on rudely shattering these accumulated feelings of contentment. (MAJOR exams! Parents divorcing! Parents NOT divorcing! Parents not so much discussing as shouting divorce! Having to babysit parents! Sprained ankle twice! Mr X left! Blahblahblah)

Evidently this 2006 Effect is very apparent. A few days ago my classmates were trying to decide the fate of a chocolate bar when one of them suggested that I should have it, because "she'll get into One Of Her Moods", One of Her Moods being the one where every word I utter rightfully belongs in a high-strung Elizabethan tragedy, the part where everyone on stage dies. Someone placed the chocolate in my bag and patted it contentedly with the instructions, "In case of emergency, use this." The emergency came about an hour after that. But arguing that I like this melodrama is like saying I enjoy screaming out in pain while being tied to four horses set to gallop in four different directions so that my limbs are torn apart joint by joint. Not very enjoyable at all, I assure you.

So I decided that I had every right to take a few 'leaves' from the tray, and made some wishes:



Then Z dared me to write this, so I did (and anyway, it's a good wish):



But I'd forfeit the 10 million for this one*:


(Ignore the tiny text; that was a private joke.)

(*Terms and conditions apply. I would sooner take the money than a guy who doesn't love me. But I still believe that it was nothing more than a set of unfortunate circumstances...)

My fingers are crossed =)

I know keeping any hope alive might be merely setting myself up for more disappointment in the future but it's the way I want to live, at least for now. I can't be bothered to make myself believe that he doesn't mean anything to me, especially because have I mentioned that Angelique is SUCH a bitch to argue with? I think about all the times Mr X was an ass and convince myself that I should run my car over him again and again and again, then a neuron up there fidgets and sneezes and I remember I let go of those grudges a long time ago, I remember his forgiveness and kindness and too much; so quiet I can hear the moments trickle by, our struggle to put forth verbal arguments because the other half would rattle off a contentious point then prevent a rebuttal with kisses.



Anyway, my monotonous sob story aside, I was wondering what you guys would wish for, if you had just one wish. And you can't wish for any more wishes; genies don't fall for that one anymore! I mean, genies can't be that stupid...

If you want me to write down your wish and drop the leaf off at the College Wishing Tree (that's what I call it, anyway), just for fun, leave it in the comments box. Just try not to make wishes that might get me into trouble. =)

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[Update]

I cut out smaller paper leaves and wrote down all your wishes!


Click for big and try to find your wish! I wrote your names on the back of the leaves. And yeah, my handwriting's tiny. =)

This making of wishes may seem trivial or meaningless but it means more to me than merely discarding pieces of paper with words written on it; it's a gesture brimming with hope. You can call me crazy but you can NEVER say that my heart is made of stone. I did this for y'all because I've visited despair and it's a bad place to be, because hope is empowering, and because I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you guys too. Yup. So if you've any more requests I'll do them, though I'm not going to take photos and all.

Anyway, as I scattered the leaves at the foot of the tree, the librarians (and, actually, pretty much every living thing) were staring at me as if I were leaf littering (Ha! Pun!) or planting (!) some secret tracking device in the pile.

It looks much more like a leaf litter (!) now though:



See the smaller red/orangey leaves? Those belong to you readers. =)

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43 Comments:

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 1:32:00 PM by Blogger kohxt...

to phase!

and four As and an A1 for the 'A's.

i suppose anything bigger than that would result in a butterfly effect which would disturb teh order of teh world.

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 1:34:00 PM by Blogger Hillary...

I wish that he'd tell me what he was thinking (and I wish it's what I'm thinking).

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 3:09:00 PM by Blogger --darksecrets...

haha, write for me!

' Go to Saint Andrew's Junior College next year! :D'

-cailing

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 4:17:00 PM by Blogger raining-noodles...

Okie! Will do all these for y'all on Monday.

I'll do the first 20 requests only, kay? It just occurred to me that the College librarians might not want so many leaves scattered all over the place haha.

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 6:00:00 PM by Blogger Jules...

One for me -

I wish college continues to be amazing for the next three years.

-Jules

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 6:25:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

I wish i practiced what i preach.it hurts me not to do so.

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 6:36:00 PM by Anonymous oct1914...

I wish that I can stop imagining things about me & G who is now a very different person from what I have known years ago.

[thanks, Angelique].

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 8:43:00 PM by Anonymous Vandtheribbon...

I wish that he's as great as he seems to be.

Btw, great post! I've been reading your blog for a few weeks now (short time lurker) and your writing is so good. And even though I enjoy other blogs aswell, it's easier to relate to yours as you are my age. Keep up the good work :)

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 9:21:00 PM by Blogger Joe...

I wish I had the strength to forgive.

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 10:03:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

I wish for world peace no more destruction. So that people could live in a little happy ending.
--Karolina

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 10:36:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

For Derek.

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 10:46:00 PM by Blogger Elisabeth Ice Cream...

I wish I could feel the butterflies and the love when I'm supposed to. My boyfriends is worth that much.

- Elisabeth

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 11:31:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

can you drop mine off too?

'i wish i could find something that makes me feel truly happy and at peace'
thank you, much love

Lilith
xxxxxxx

 

Posted Sunday, July 23, 2006 11:42:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

Angelique..

Do you seriously think that people won't be able to know which JC you are from by blurring the words?

Hmm.

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 2:29:00 AM by Blogger sw-ptr...

I wish 2 make all my goals a reality!!!

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 2:41:00 AM by Blogger Erro...

I wish I could get to her. To see her again. And be with her till time ends.


Beautiful entry/ idea, by the way.
Good luck with Mr.X, dear.
I wish you the best.

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 3:05:00 AM by Blogger only_livia...

for someone to think of me as i am, second to no bitchswallah.

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 6:08:00 AM by Blogger Helena....

Well Angelique, this post really moved me. And about Mr X, self pitty is good for getting over stuff, just don't go rowling around in it for too long. Maybe it's time to let go. (Yeah, I know, easier said than done, much easier..).

My whish, i want this so bad. I've actually prayed for this one, and supposedly I don't even believe in God.

I whish that my sister will get that which will make her truly, truly happy.

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 8:27:00 AM by Anonymous Jess...

Maybe you could make a wish for me...

I wish that Jessica Magby would get into Juilliard next year.

It can't hurt to wish, I suppose :)

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 10:29:00 AM by Anonymous Anonymous...

i wish he loved me back.

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 12:08:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

Well, there's twenty comments so far but you left some too so many I have a chance to get my wish thrown in.

I wish that she stops controlling our friendship so he and I can start talking again.

It was a more complicated wish than that, but that'd be too much for you to write =).
-Alissa

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 12:09:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

ahem. and by many, I mean "maybe".
-Alissa

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 3:48:00 PM by Blogger HairyFairy...

wow, you're gonna have a hellofatime writing wishes for all the readers. but anyways heres mine.

i wish lisa back. -lance

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 6:25:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

someone has got a dirty mind! private dirty joke eh?
cat = pussy?

 

Posted Monday, July 24, 2006 7:16:00 PM by Blogger raining-noodles...

"Angelique..
Do you seriously think that people won't be able to know which JC you are from by blurring the words?
Hmm."

Nah, anyone who found me on Ellegirl knows which school I attend. I only did the mosiac to indicate that the subject matter of the post is completely divorced from the specifics of The College, i.e. I neither advocate nor disapprove of anything related to The College in this post. (And anyway it's quite fun to call it The College. Sounds kinda cryptic! XD)

"someone has got a dirty mind! private dirty joke eh?
cat = pussy?"

I neither confirm nor deny this claim. *shifty eyes*

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 12:03:00 AM by Anonymous shir...

I wish the butterflies I feel whenever I look at him will never end.

(thank you!)

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 12:24:00 AM by Anonymous Anonymous...

hey angelique. I never thought of commenting but just felt touched at your actions to help people and the want to give them some hope. Keep up the great blogging!

I wish that Angelique will have the best times of her life.

-Lydia

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 2:49:00 AM by Anonymous Vandtheribbon...

Wow I spotted mine (at a second glance!). Thank you very much! (My wish however seems not to be coming true... alas, hope has not been lost yet!)

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 3:10:00 AM by Anonymous Elisabeth Ice Cream...

I saw my wish, Angel, thank you so much. You know me well enough to see that that ment alot to me. Thank you.

- Elisabeth

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 4:50:00 AM by Anonymous Anonymous...

you are INCREDIBLE for actually writing all those wishes out.

!!

maybe it is stupid/superstitious/whatever, but the fact that you wrote out my leaf wish made me a tiny bit more hopeful...

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 9:21:00 AM by Blogger Hillary...

THANK YOU
thank you thank you.
I honestly think it's workin...

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 12:41:00 PM by Blogger Alissa<3...

Thank you soooo much for giving my wish. It really means a lot to me. I hope they work for all of us.

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 2:39:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

I wish that I could talk to this guy that I liked two years ago. I told him I liked him on the last day of school and I never got a response because I transferred over to another school (due to the previous school's inability to function.) I don't care if the response is bad, good, or lack thereof, but I'd like one so I don't have to keep on wondering what if...

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 6:45:00 PM by Blogger Jules...

Thank you so, so much. You actually wrote those out for us. :) Thank you.

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 8:41:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

you rock! =)

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 10:29:00 PM by Blogger Erro...

Thank you.

 

Posted Tuesday, July 25, 2006 11:56:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

i wish angelique would make her font for the comments bigger and that they won't look all screwed up anymore. =)

 

Posted Wednesday, July 26, 2006 1:15:00 AM by Anonymous Anonymous...

I wish I could find someone to that kind of intimacy with someone again.

XX Muffin

 

Posted Thursday, July 27, 2006 6:45:00 AM by Anonymous Anonymous...

I wish every summer was as wonderful as this one.

 

Posted Thursday, July 27, 2006 5:11:00 PM by Blogger raining-noodles...

All requests done! Including the one about the comments =)

 

Posted Monday, July 31, 2006 12:18:00 AM by Blogger Helena....

Angelique, what you wrote, it's so true. It's never meaningless to whish.Whishing is all we can do somtimes, and it makes me feel less helpless in some way. And that you, far across the globe made my whish for me..it's like I've got hope 'couse it's out there now. Thank you! From the bottom of my heart.

I can't believe how girly I'm being right now (I'm actually crying). I blame it on my period which I'm having right now. Right, too much information..

 

Posted Wednesday, August 23, 2006 10:28:00 PM by Anonymous Anonymous...

You really are an incredible, incredible person. Thank you so much for putting my wish in, I've wanted to go to Juilliard since I was 4, maybe this well help a tiny bit :)

Jessica

 

Posted Friday, April 27, 2007 3:18:00 AM by Anonymous Anonymous...

just wana let you know that you're sweet. for doing this.

it was such a long ago post, but i'd like to wish that i'll meet gto again. in the near future.

 

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